Namaran

Life sucks

2007-07-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

Like the title says my life pretty much bites. I didn't get the job I applied for because I am not a kiss ass. They gave it to a person who is extremly less qualified than me merely because she is in good with the "right people". I hate my job! I hate where I work. I feel trapped and depressed. I feel like I will never get out of debt, never own my own house, never feel like I acomplished anything. Well writing didn't help, its just making me more sad. So I will stop.

A long time gone....

2007-06-28T12:43:00.000-07:00

Well I KNOW it has been awhile since I posted anything....so I'll just recap what has been going on.

April 10th 2007 My grandmother after a long, difficult illness (stroke) died at 9:00pm. I was leaving to visit a friend in Ohio.

I still work where I worked before and still hate it as much as I ever did...perhaps more.

My conlang has stalled and picked up and stralled again....I hate creating words...looking for a good program if any one knows of one.

That's about it for now..See ya later.

Well crap has fallen all over me!

2007-04-05T12:15:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in a long time bu there is an update.

Grandma: She had another stroke at the begginning of March, they took her of some medications and my mom had to sign a lot of paperwork saying that my grandma was DNR and that she wanted to bring her home. Yesterday she complained of chest pain and she was sent to the Hospice facility in Tempe, which is not far from where I live. This doesn't seem to be life threatening so hopefully she'll go back home soon. I'll find out more when I go home tonight.

Me: Not much is happening in my life, I still work at a job I hate and am still looking for another one. I go to Ohio on the 10th of April to visit my friend and my goddaughter. I really am looking forward to this....She has 8 horses on her property and we may go riding! That of course depends on the horses additude. Hopefully everything with my grandma will be fine at least until we get back.

Namaran: Well th language has taken a dramatic turn: Triconsonantal Roots ala Hebrew! I am very excited! I have actually written all the possible root combinations on the computer, now I just need to fine tune the grammar (Phonology has stayed pretty much the same.) I have also named a new culture called the Swik. The Swik are mysterious people from the northern mountains of Namar. I like them, they tend to be sarcastic like me!

The weekend

2007-02-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

Had an okay weekend. I bought a new laptop, external hard drive and a couple of new programs. I spent most of my time with my mom window shopping. We had a BBQ on Saturday at my grandma's house. It was fun. We talked about old times and ate tasty hamburgers. My grandma looked fine. She tires more easily and seems to have lost her eyelashes, but other then that, fairly stable. She was taken off the blood thinners. So now it is a waiting games to see what kills her first; her bad heart, diabetes, high blood pressure, stroke, heart attack or pneumonia.

I am tired so this is all I'll write today.

Not good news

2007-02-09T15:45:00.000-07:00

My grandma suffered another stroke on Tuesday February 6th, 2007. It is different then her first stroke in that it is bleeding. The doctor took her off her blood thinners (which was prescribed because her first stroke was a clot). Hospice has taken over her care. She is at home, awake, and recognizes everyone, which is good. My mom signed all the paperwork for DNR, I know that was hard for her, but it is what grandma wants (she stated it in her living will). This sucks! I have cried a lot this week and no one really knows when she may go. It could be today it could be six months from now.....I hate crying. It makes me feel out of control and that scares me completely.

I am angry with god. Why must she suffer? What lesson are we meant to learn? Why must we learn it?

I am angry with my brother. I haven't seen him since July of 2005. He has been in and out of jail and writes us letters to make us feel guilty. He doesn't even know that our grandma had her first stroke, let alone this recent one.

I am angry with my cousin, who our grandma raised for most of his life. She supported him in school and what does he do? He dropps out just shy of graduating and after taking out a large student loan. My grandma co-signed for that loan and he defaulted. She has had to pay for his stupidity. He has not seen her since before she had the stroke and rarely calls.

Overall, I want someone to blame, but unfortunetly there is no one. I can't solve this problem, this situation and that makes me the angriest of all.

Wow it has been a loonnngg time!

2007-02-06T12:45:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in quite awhile. I guess I have been too busy or too lazy to write something down. (A little of both I wager). I guess I'll just go throught the basics of what has been going on:

My Grandma is at home and has 24hour care (which costs over $7000 biweekly!!!!) It all out of pocket. She seems okay, But she barely attempts to use her right arm any more, she doesn't even attempt to paint. I can actually see her decline. She just turned 81 in January. I don't know if she'll make it to 82.

My mom still is the primary caregiver to my grandma. She goes over to her house at 7:00am to give my grandma her shot and makes sure that she takes her pills (a feat in itself). My mom then drive the 20 some odd miles to work. After work she returns to my grandmothers house (around 4:00pm) to give her her evening shot and pills. (For $7000, you'd think that the in-home care would give medication, NOPE!) Mom's brothers and sister barely visit and/or help with the care of my grandma. (Nice kids, eh)

I still work in the same craptastic government job as I always have......errrr. I have put in tons of applications for jobs in Ohio and Arizona, but haven't heard anything yet.

As far as conlangs go, I haven't done much lately. I sort of scrapped my old one and am now trying to revamp it....we'll see how that goes.

Other then that things have stayed relatively the same.

Changes

2006-11-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

I am changing Namaran. I will:

Make the grammar more regular (Like a IAL but not quite)
Make it sound more French and less Russian
And other things I can't think of right now.....

I'll keep you posted.

Long time no post

2006-10-26T12:55:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in awhile, because nothing exciting has happened. But I am still here....maybe I'll have something tomorrow!?!?

2007Honda Civic EX

2006-10-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

Yep, got it last night! Really cool car with all the bells and whistles! Fun to drive and good on gas! Not much else to say but WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

New Car!

2006-10-18T11:13:00.000-07:00

I am getting a brand new car (Honda Civic). I researched high and low to figure out which one to get , and hopefully I made a good decision. I wanted a car that was reliable, dependable and good on gas. So I think I picked well. I went through my bank and have a guy searching for me as we speak! I am soooo excited! Well that's all for now, its about time for lunch so tootle loo!

My Weekend

2006-10-16T10:03:00.000-07:00

Well, the weekend is over and it is back to work......yuk. My weekend pretty much sucked because I had the flu and I was miserable from Friday evening until now (Although I still don't feel 100%) I spent most of the weekend driving around trying to help my mom find a new dining room table....which we didn't. But I guess that is better then sitting at home doing nothing. I saw my grandma twice, once on saturday and once on Sunday. Saturday she was weak and sort of pissed off, My sister didn't help by ordering her around and my poor mom was on the verge. On the verge of what? At this point even I don't know. Sunday was better, I tried to explain to her what the situation was (i.e. Hospice, Insurance, yada yada yada.) and she seemed to understand. After that I felt that we needed to do something to get us out of our rutt, so we went to the store and bought all of the ingrediants to make a good turkey dinner. It was fun cooking with my sister and mom. I think it helped us take our minds of what was going on in our lives. We also played rummy and I LOST big time. Mom kicked all of our asses!

Today I got a phone call from my best friend (she lives in Ohio). Her grandmother is in the same boat as my grandma (she has heart problems and was recently moved from her home to Hospice.) We talked for awhile until I started to cry and then I told her that I did't want to talk about it anymore this morning. She agreed and we talked about the weather in Ohio, our jobs and other non-sad sort of things. She really is a great friend. I don't know what I'd do without her.
I just noticed how long this post is so I think I will signoff, so as they say in Namaran:
Dabor Den!! (Good Day!)

Namaran Grammar-Book?

2006-10-13T10:45:00.000-07:00

Well sort of. I used the layout and examples of LERNU.com's Consise Grammar and mirrored it into my own language Namaran. I like it. And since Namaran is based somewhat on Esperanto, I think it helped. I still need to add more stuff but so far so good! Here it is! Tell me what you think.

Well that's all for now....I probally won't post on the weekends but I will "see" y'all Monday!

Oh and here is "Happy Columbus Day" in Namaran. (Any day I get to take off of work is a good day!)

Srek Kolumbus Den!

My Grandmother

2006-10-11T15:49:00.000-07:00

I got bad/good news today about my Grandma. Anyways here is a little back story....

My grandma had a massive stroke about a a year ago. It robbed her of her ability to speak and the use of her arm. She can no longer effectively communicate and she can no longer paint and draw (Something she was really good at and loved to do). Since the stroke she has been in and out of rehab and does not seem to be getting better. Around the beginning of last month she got sick and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure (an enlarged heart due to fluid build-up). She is dying.

Of the few words she can say clearly, she questions why this happened to her, what did she do to deserve this, she questions God. So do I.

My grandma wants to go home and the good news is that they (the insurance company and doctors) will let her. Hospice came and evaluated her today and accepted her into their "program" (for lack of a better word). The bad thing is that they basically believe she has only six months left and thereefor she met their criteria.

I don't know how to deal with this information. What do I do? What do I say? How will my mom cope? How will I cope? I know that my grandma is scared but how can I comfort her? THese questions swirl around my mind all day.....I wish I had someone to talk to.

Namaran

2006-10-10T14:54:00.000-07:00

Namaran Phonology (in X-SAMPA for easy reading and understanding.):

Letter X-SAMPA Example (Sorry about the alignment, If you have any questions just post a comment and I'll try to answer it.)

Aa A father
Áá Ai ice
Bb b bat
Dd d dog
Ee* E met
Éé Ei say
Ff f fig
Gg g go
Ii i feet
Jj Z vision
Kk k kite
Ll l life
Mm m mat
Nn n net
Oo O hotel
Pp p pat
Rr r\ red
Ss s sat
Shsh S ship
Tt t top
Vv v value
Zz z zero

*Pronounced like ay in say when at the beginning and/or end of any given word.

Phonological Constraints:

Namaran syllables are (C)(C)V(C)

Any consonant can begin a syllable. The permitted initial consonant clusters are:

- s + any voiceless plosive, nasal, liquid (sp, st, sk, sm, sn, sl, and sr)

- plosive or fricative + liquid (pr, pl, br, bl, tr, tl, dr, dl, kr, kl, gr, gl, fr, fl, vr, vl, sr, sl, zr, zl, shr, shl, jr, jl)

- Any nasal + r (mr, nr)The permissible final consonants are any plosive, nasal, liquid and voiced fricative (p, b, t, d, k, g, m, n, r, l, v, z, and j)

Stress

Namaran words are lightly stressed on the final syllable. However the stress may be so light that it is barely discerned by non-native speakers or may not be recognized at all.

Elision

In Namaran, elision refers to the suppression of a final unstressed vowel immediately before another word beginning with a vowel. The term also refers to the orthographic convention by which the deletion of a vowel is reflected in writing, and indicated with an apostrophe. This most often occurs between adjectives, nouns and adverbs.

2006-10-10T14:16:00.000-07:00

Ah...my first post. Let's see, how about a little information about myself....

My name is not Kezren, (and no I will not tell you my real name) I am 28 years old, just got my my Master's degree in Business Management and I love creating Languages, worlds and writing systems...strange I know. I own a 8yr old terrier mix dog named Daisey and hope to one day to own horses, right now I can't afford to. Well that's it for me, lets talk about Namaran.

My main conlang is called Namaran and is set in my conworld of Namar. Namaran is an IndoEuropean language based largly on German, Macedonian, Italian and Esperanto. The language is coming along nicely (at least to me) and I have most of my grammar and phonological rules solidified. Now I just have to work on the lexicon (I think that is the right word) and build my vocabulary.

The script is based on Arabic and Braille. I'll have some examples later, as I am not near my scanner or my notes. More to come later....I hope to enjoy future conversations with those with similar interests.